Another Post from the Heart –
Only the Strong Will Thrive

I’ve been receiving active support from the Archangels Michael, Grace, Faith, and Rafael for awhile now. Too, since I’ve been working with my Inner Critics and more resolution of past heartbreaks becomes available, I have other memories come up. This statement came up for me yesterday after talking to a longtime medicine friend. One of the first things Archangel Michael ever told me during our private time together was, “When the time [for the Shift] comes, only the strong will survive.” As healers and teachers, I believe we have contributed to a brighter future than that one over the last 30 years, so I would like to amend that statement to, “Only the strong will thrive.”

A Look into the Past

I’m in the middle of writing Transcendent Journey – the Prequel under SARK‘s mentorship. This book is the story of how the Archangel Michael came into my life after I received my spiritual calling. I know writing my history down will help many people, because I essentially share what it was like to be called from a life where I was at least content into a very strange but magickal adventure, for which I was completely unprepared.

My medicine friend is a part of that story. Tolen, my roommate and brother of choice, and I met him online when we were the first Internet Radio channelers for the Archangel Michael. Even though he was a Native Cherokee by birth, he was a bit of a techie. So, it was no surprise that he gravitated toward Compuserve and the eco-friendly special interest group where we channeled. Needless to say, we have many great online conversations before we met in person.

This man was very influential in my journey. When Tolen decided to stop channeling the Archangel Michael, my friend was there to support me going it alone. He provided introductions for several powerful medicine journeys including me meeting Grandmother Mary Thunder, the Parks, the Max Crystal Skull, and the crystal amulets from the Vatican. He also sponsored my first workshop on Native-Owned land. More importantly, he was the holder of several crystal skulls that were carved in an ancient, sacred pattern, known to few. We loved playing with his crystal skulls, experimenting with medicine wheels, various combinations of skulls, music, dancing, making sacred offerings.

Then, a few years ago he got into The Right Use of Will. He evolved from an easy-going, friendly sharer of inspiration to an authoritarian demander of what was right. So, we lost touch. However, I was inspired to look for him on the Internet over the last few months and finally connected on Facebook. We didn’t say much initially but had a chat last week which culminated in a phone call over the weekend. I processed all day yesterday because the marked change in my friend was hard to hear.

Losing Connection

When someone you care about who has been instrumental in your evolution loses connection with Infinite Source, it feels very sad. I listened to my friend talk about being laid off, needing to move to another country where retirement was cheaper, the cost of cable, the cost of food, the water shortage in the western US, how hard it had been to pay child support for his kids (who I believe have been adults for at least 5-10 years now). It didn’t bother me that he talked about life things. What bothered me was that that was all he talked about.

So, I asked him whether he still had the crystal skulls. He seemed afraid to talk about them, only mentioning that at one time they were stored in a box in his closet for years, and that he had a few things. When I asked him why he didn’t talk about them, he indicated that he was afraid someone would steal from him, that someone had broke into his apartment awhile back and he caught them when he came home early from work.

Then, I mentioned various medicine people we mutually knew. Either they were out of the picture or he didn’t see them any more. I asked him what he brought forward from the ceremonies we did separately and together. He said, “I met some interesting people and had fun while it lasted. But, what we did really didn’t make a difference in the world. Just look at the state of things. I probably should have put my extra money in my 401K instead of purchasing the crystal skulls.”  I felt shocked that someone who had had such a powerful impact on my own medicine journey had given up hope of a better future for himself, his boys, his world.

When You Separate
Yourself from Your Power

When you focus and talk all the time about what isn’t working, what you don’t have, what you lack in life, you separate yourself from your power. If you continue this pattern, with no relief, with no recognition of any of the blessings in your life, you will fall asleep. When you are spiritually asleep for any prolonged period of time, you enter the state of living death, where you go through the motions of day-to-day living, disconnected from Infinite Source. I felt very sad to hear my friend’s lack of animation, lack of gratitude, lack of life force. The man I knew was gone. His body just didn’t know it. When I realized this, my chest became tight; my heart rhythm became a bit irregular. So, I talked to one of my medicine girl friends who urged me to love, accept, allow, and remember the goodness.

What Does It Take to
Be Spiritually Strong?

I can only answer this question from my personal experience. Sometimes all I can do, when times seem tough, is put one foot in front of the other. When high emotions arise and I feel almost paralyzed, when my body reacts adversely to this emotional energy, I pull myself up by my bootstraps and do something. It could be washing dishes, doing the laundry, petting the cat, going for a walk, making a cup of tea. Movement of any kind creates space around emotions.

If I can’t get myself to move, I breathe through the emotions. I no longer stuff them. I let them flow. I do my best not to emotionally throw up all over my friends and family, but sometimes I even do that. They understand that I’m a high energy, high emotions kind of gal.

I stay committed. No matter how badly things feel in the moment, I always believe that beyond this moment there is a better one. I know this is true because when I put an actualization in motion, unless I change my mind, it eventually happens. To remind me that better days will happen because in the past they have happened, I think of anything I can be grateful for. Then, I write in my gratitude journal, even through tears.

I don’t just have faith or believe in God/Source/Creator. I know with every fiber of my being that there is this Highest Power, that there is a pattern to life that makes sense, that we can call that Ocean of Unconditional Love to bathe us, no matter how we feel. Even at a time when my body is most resistant, when my emotions are raw, I still reach out to Infinite Source with questions, “How can it be better than this?” “How can I feel more support? more comfort? more ease?” “What else can we do together to make this better for me, my family, my home?”

Blanket of Love

My friend was so instrumental in some of the most powerful learning experiences on my path, so I bless him always. May he be blanketed with the Unconditional Love of Infinite Source and may he feel loved, accepted, and heard.